For the doll in the glass....

Mai kuch bholta nahi par

tum ye kaise bhool jati ho

ki mai bhi insaan hu... 

maar diya tune  mujhe pyar sikha kar,

Hoti hai chahat kya ye mujhe samjha kar,
Qurbani hai iyar ka asli matlab,
Chorr diya sath mera bas itna bata kar..
wo din bhi kya hassin the jab ham tum dono karib the

hazaaron khil uthi kalian jab tere mere dil karib the
jahan ka dar na ruswai ka na dar tha khudse koi

wo kesa ishq ka junuon tha wo kesa mera habib tha
wo kesa ehsaas tha  wo kaisa  pyar tha

wo kesa mera yar tha wo kesa mera pyar tha

wo yaad ate hei din mujhe wo jo mera phla pyar tha

na wo pyar he na wo bach pana hai yaddyi abto ye khyal tha

wo kesa mera  pyar tha wo kesa mera yar tha...

ab tum sheeshe me utar gayi.....  kya vo bhi mera kasoor tha..

ARMAAN...

jab sapne ban kar sheeshe ke sajnme lagte hai aankho me

tab har khushi aur gam ka kuch rishta banta hai saanso se....

aur bhikhre aarma kuch moti se bandhne kagte hai dhago me .....

jab toot te hai vo dhage, moti girte hai m shisho pe....

tab toote hue vo kaanch ke tookde chubhne lagte hai aankho me...

umeed...

Rishtaa-E-Umeed
aashayen.... ye ek resham k us kacche dhage ki tarha hoti hai jo hawa ke ek halke se jhonke ko bhi mehsoos kar leta hai..ummed sejyada ushe tootne par majboor kar dei hai.

umeed se jyada aashyen tootne par majboor kar deti hai.

20th april

aaj mere papa hospital se discharg ho gaye hai. hum log kafi khush hai. lekin unhone meri maa ko danta kyoki maine unse baat nahi ki thi jab vo hospital me the.

mai kya karta meri un se baat karne ki himmat hi nahi ho rahi thi isliye nahi ki mughe un se darr lag raha tha par isliye ki mai apne aap se darr raha tha. aaj jab mere bhai unhe discharg karva rahe the to papa ne unhe bhi daata tha kyoki unhe lagta hai ki koi bhi unka khyal nahi rakhta isliye vo hospital se jana hi nahi chahte the.

aur aaj pata nahi kyu mughe mere sawal ka javab mile par thodi si rahat(not relief, alleviation) mili hai kyoki mai is duniya ko bhi janna chahta hu.

A view from my window..

Aaj fir mai apne aap ko bilkul akela mehsoos kar raha hu aur ek aisi duniya ka sahara le raha hu jis me mughe koi nahi janta. "Bhagwaan" vo hai jo har kisi ki sunta hai par use mai sunana nahi chahta.

Mai ek chote se gaon se ek sahar me lagbhag 3 saal pehle aaya tha. Mai apne saath do door laya tha ek maa ka pyaar papa ka viswas. un sab ko mugh se bahut umeede thi aur aaj bhi hai.

par aaj un logo ko mere pyar, viswas aur hausle ki jarurat hai jo mai chahte hue bhi unhe nahi de pa raha hu. ye sab likhte hue mere haath kaap(shiver) rahe hai par mai likhna chata hu mera man ro raha hai par aankho se mai rona nahi chahta mere andar bate hai par bhahar nahi nikal sakta. aaj se 4 din pehle mere papa ko dusra hart attack aaya tha aur vo aaj bhi hospital me hai par mai un se milne nahi ja saka. aaj fir meri maa mere samne royi thi. aaj fir mera bhai ne mere se aur umeed bada di.

aaj mai itna hi likh pa raha hu kyoki mera 1 hr( cyber cafe me ) pura ho gaya hai aur ye sab likhne me i have to pay rs25.

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